i have just spent over an hour, lying in my bed, tangled amongst lavender sheets and consciously imagining every minute as it descended upon me and left. my mind is as white and shiny as the walls.

maybe it's withdrawal symptoms from drinking inordinant amounts of tea in the last few days. perhaps it's the knowing that i'm freer than i ever dreamed possible. i believe it's the little snippets of sadness and hope that swim and settle in my stomach, warm sips for tomorrow and a shell for today.

then again, it might be because i have one more exam left that i have yet to study for. fie to the core curriculum!